Date : Thursday, January 17, 2008
Time : 12:04 AM
Title : heart of love greed.

hello. its been a week plus since my attachment starts. with nods, i doesnt have much time for anyone. really, i mean anyone. anyone like girlfriend, yuxing, bests. i have two days off per week. seems/sounds alot? okay, it doesnt. it only feels like one.

im on for qian's thingy tmr which is another precious off day. i agreed very unwillingly. why? because she needs help on a marketing project? okay, idk. cos i doesnt want to appear as a very "not-good" friend. friends, you girls/guys get my point?

when attachment starts, yuxing and girlfriend became the victim; victim of victim.

for yuxing, when im sleeping, he's out for school, and when im home, he's already asleep. a very silly thinking sank into me: after two months, will he forget how to call me "jie jie"? this is poo. okay, not forgetting off days. during my off days, i will sleep till noon; like maybe 11 am plus? at this time, he's still in school, and, i'll definately go out, by the time im back home again, its like 6 plus. 3 plus more hours to his bed time? hah. i know, this is silly, but at the same time, very horrible isnt it?

and for girlfriend, i know it have been very hard on her. she have been travalling from woodlands area to seng kang almost every single day? very tiring eh. and let me talk about how her everyday routine works. first, text me when she's out. then, call me during break time. after that, text me whenever she can. fourth, buy what i want to eat, if its at woodlands she will bring it down all the way from there, if its at seng kang, we'll buy together and she'll get to see me for 10 minutes. lastly, kiss goodbye. hard uhh. frankly, i am not that dovey.

love greed.-} a day of one minute hug is enough.